I've been through what you're going through. Just know it gets better. This whole community supports you and your endeavors; once a defender always a defender.
Like Garzhod said, it feels a little weird/shallow to write about this with depression being such a gentle subject, but if you would like, my top 3 choices are
1. Greater Magicite of Winds
2. Cinnamon and Ginger
Once again bro, the only thing that matters here is that you get better. We all hope to see you on in the future!